The Love Letters: Letter #4
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LETTER #4: Hearts Across the Ocean (2/2)
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Hey Ma Reverie!
You know I had to check that out just for you right? Apparently it’s French for “dream”. And that’s what you are to me too. Sometimes I grab my totem, the locket you sent me to mark our first year anniversary, just to be sure I’m not living in a dream. Inception style, you know?
I wish we were together sharing in the beauty of this season in the City of Love; kissing on the sidewalks, cuddling in the parks and doing all the things that lovers do. You should have told that tour guide you have someone whose heart is bound to yours with a lock greater the Arc de Triomphe; someone who’d leap over the Eiffel Tower if he had to, just for you.
You know, technically dear, it hasn’t been six months. It’s been five months, twenty-nine days, fifteen hours and thirty-seven minutes, at least as at the time I will send this message. Yeah, I know youre rolling your eyes but I’m an engineer darling, it’s encoded in my DNA. Really though, I know exactly how long it’s been because I’ve felt every single one of these moments you’ve been away from me. Just the other day, I called one of the servers at the cafeteria at the office by your name when I was asking for some pepper. All my friends laughed.
You’ve become more than my friend or lover, you’re like an extension of my consciousness in a body of its own. At least on the rig, I’ve got other people with me. When I’m onshore, all I come home to is an empty house with touches of you all over, but only a faint whisper of your essence. The only reason I look forward to being onshore now is the fact that I get to call and hear you. A fact I’m grateful for, but one that only makes me want you around even more. Yet I can’t, because you have to be where you are. It’s bittersweet though. A part of me, the logical one, is happy you’re away doing what you love. But the irrational one, the emotional one, wishes you didn’t have to go; is unhappy that I can’t be there with you, as the one you love. But hey, hopefully you’ll soon be able to do both what you love and the one you love.
I do remember the first day we met. How could I ever forget? I still remember how entranced I was by the aura you seemed to effortlessly radiate. I’ve always been able to see beneath the surface; a trick of the trade. Your case wasn’t different. I couldn’t put my finger on it at the time, but something made me pay attention. I saw beyond the stone walls and moats, beyond the wired fence and barricades that surrounded your heart. I saw the person that was. I saw YOU. I also saw the frailty that was hidden under all those layers of bluster and coldness. I saw the hurt, mixed with uncertainty and doubt. I saw the yearning for understanding and a kindred spirit. Most of all, I saw a thirst for love. I felt your heart call out to mine the way the drums give rhythm to a song. And so I set my mind to break down those stone walls. I would build a bridge across that moat. I would surmount that wired fence and pull down the barricades. And then our hearts would beat in unison. I did and then they did.
We both know there was no way I wouldn’t let you take the job when the offer came. No one catches an eagle and cages it because of love. The only things down that path are pain, regret, frustration and ultimately hate. Seeing you soar brings me joy. With every picture you put up, your smiles make me smile. Your laughter brings some sunshine into my dreariness.
The guys on the rig all laugh at how excited I get when I’m checking out your Instagram page during off hours. I see your happiness, and if it means that you’ll be away from me for a while, then so be it. It’s a pain I am willing to bear. Does that make me selfish? Was I inconsiderate of how much it would hurt you to be away from me, in spite of your love for the work at the magazine? We both know the answer to both questions is no. You will be fine, We will be fine and things will work themselves out one way or another and we will be together.
I have loved you with all I am; holding nothing back, because you have shown me with your life that living any other way is mediocre and worthless. No half measures. I heard our song the other night. I was working late at my desk at home and my shuffle playlist put it on just as I was about to shut down and go to bed. I couldn’t hear India Arie. All I could feel were your eyes looking into mine and your voice saying all those things to me. I’m not surprised I walked into your dreams that night. I wasn’t sleeping, and I could almost reach out and touch you. It was freaky, but it was beautiful. I think back at how you were when we began this journey and I realise that the song really is true, I did heal you. But you healed me too. I didn’t even know I needed healing. You gave me purpose. Loving you and helping you become who I saw you could be was and still is my goal. We’re not there yet, but we’re a heck of a long way from where we started off.
You should have let me tell you all this over the phone. I’ve never really been one for fine words. You’re the writer. But look at me now though. You’re rubbing off. I remember the first letter I wrote to you with that corny line “my heartbeat when you’re not here is like sprite without gas, flat”. Terrible! My boss’s daughter – it think her name is Chioma – received one of those kind of letters from a boy in her school last week too. He found it and showed me and my God it was hilarious! As we laughed, I remembered how you’d laughed that infectious laugh of yours at my own puerile words too. You’d said Shakespeare would probably be rolling in his grave because of that line. Then we both laughed. But you still loved it though. You understood how deeply my heart yearned to let you know its feelings through those words. Your ability to understand more than the things said; to comprehend totally without any uttered words; that almost telepathic resonance of our souls, even with a separation of several thousand miles is one that I will always cherish. I hope you know how much of a blessing you are to me darling. I really do.
I love you dear. I mean those words with every atom of my existence. With all that I am and I will ever be. I miss you. A LOT!!! I can’t wait to see you and hold you in my arms. I can’t wait to run my fingers through your hair and play with your ears. I can’t wait to look into your eyes and let our souls speak volumes to each other in silence. I can’t wait, but I will.
See you soon my lover, my friend, my heart, my valentine.
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Yes yes yes.. you did it..
:-D
FIRSSSSST!!!!!..
What was the boss looking for in chioma’s mathset??..
Looool!!
hahahaha… the divider now..
LOOOOOOOOL
Gheun!!!!!!!! We investigate……LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
"I can’t wait, but I will" <—– everything
“Sometimes I grab my totem”
Pause! LOOOL!
This letter makes me miss love, *wipes stray tear* distance is a bitch tho, I hope the characters make it.
hahahaha.. you just had to single out that part..
. . . my friend, my lover, you’re like an extension of my consciousness in a body of its own.
FVCK IT! I'm soo gonna use that line on Thursday -________-
@MallamSawyerr, I hope u teach writing too… That was a nice piece. Thumbs up to u.
Alas I don’t. I’m a humble Key Stage 3 Physics teacher. :) Thank you.
awwwn. so sweet.
*Sigh* beautiful.. i'm still entranced.
Ma Reverire :) <<<<<< Je rire toujours quand je lire votre Lettre. <3 <3 <3 <3
Now this right here is love! *sigh*
When will someone write this for me?
*Psssst* you know where to find me.
Masoyiyata, bayan dubun gaisuwa da fatan alheri, mai faranta mini zuciya, Murmushin ta fari sal kamar hasken wata…………….. *Holds the P key* -________-
Babban magana, Abin mamaki! amma ka tabatar wanar kaunar da gaske ne? Toh sai ka zo muyi rawa a haken sabuwar wata! Amma I na fata baraka ji tsoro ba in na canza kama.Sent from my BlackBerry wireless device from MTN
LMAOOOOOOOO, vampire things!!!, I will pass *leaves p- key* Sent from my BlackBerry wireless device
Please come back! Its not my fault; its my bloodline. Why can't I just have a happy moonlit Val like every other girl? :(Sent from my BlackBerry wireless device from MTN
*plays 2pac* do for love!! Ok babe..I am all yours!! (ˆ⌣ˆ ) Sent from my BlackBerry wireless device
You do realize I'm no longer responsible for my actions once the moon rises, don't you?What are we waiting for? Let's dance!Sent from my BlackBerry wireless device from MTN
Don't. Worry babe, I've got holy water, wooden stakes and silver bullets…..take your pick! Sent from my BlackBerry wireless device
That's what the others said too, they believed they would break the jinx.
You forget I'm 6'1. You don't wanna imagine my height or size as a wolf.
Haaaaaaaaays \(˘̯˘ ). @Tools you can stop hating on a brothers game…LoooooooLSent from my BlackBerry wireless device
Erm.. wharris all this?
Hahahaha. Its coded Ps. Except the P jusy became :p!Sent from my BlackBerry wireless device from MTN
Hmmmmn muma bari mu shiga cikin masu neman ein mata masu canza kamanin su.
In de kin tabata cew baza ki cinyi ni ba, gani na zo mu taka raw *bani kidi, bani kidi, bani kidi mallam*
Mu ma mutane su rubuta tarihin soyayar tamu
Haka ko! Tun da kun shirya ku yi rawar karan kwana a shirye nake, inna muku alkawarin mutuwa da ya dace da maza. Bayan wanan na tabatar muku sunayan ku za su shiga litatafun tarihin soyayarSent from my BlackBerry wireless device from MTN
Ba damuwa, na ji ance a cikin irin soyayar nan, Zuciya maza tana samun karfin zuwa yaki dari da kari, Soyayar tana da dadin da zata malakin hankalin mutum da har mutuwa ma ba abun tsoro bane.
Ein mata irin ku an ce ana shekara da shekaru irin ku ba'a haife ku ba, mata masu ikon rikita ma mutum hankali ama tausayin ba shi kwanciyar hankali, mata masu dadin maganar da ke hana mutum bacci ba tare da murmushi ba, mata masu tsayawa da na miji a cikin tsufan lycantrophe kuma su hana kan su cinye shi?
Amazing! Just amazing!
:')
‘Hey Ma Reverie’…. sigh… :) enough said
" But hey, hopefully you’ll soon be able to do both what you love and the one you love." do both abi, mon gbo eh *Seshual*
This here will make you want to throw caution to the winds and fall in love, Mallam you have done justice to this reply!!!!! jkshdjahfddsjghfdgjkdfsgjhfhj *Where is Cupid when you need him?*
Tula i hate you and Dania right now. Yall are making me so fucking mushy!
Who wants to be my Val ( ._.)
Jesus loves u
U want to chop slap Abi?
i'll be your val.we can exchange our very own private letters :) deal?
Can’t believe I’m just seeing this.Oya how do we proceed?
I wish you put a time frame to when next you guys were gonna see. That's like the most important part of LDR Convos. And yes, is she expecting? Cos it's been a year… Well done with the grammar and expression.
Wow…literally LoLd at the hopefully u’ll be able to do Wat u love n d one u love line…n d accurate calculation of their time apart was just *sigh*…..
wats dis I’m not usually dis mushy…now c Wat u’v caused
Hi MallamSawyer,
Will you write me a love letter too?
Will someone just write me a love letter like this one. *sigh* Such mushy love.
*Hugs pillow*
Btw, I said write o, not type.
Just leave me and let me cry. . . . . *sniffles*
cry a river dear….go on
*sigh* this is just too much. "I saw the person that was. I saw YOU" @mallamsawyer will u marry me? plsssss.
This letter just restores my hope in real love.
i just quietly copied link and sent to my girlfriend in dublin…was going to read it to her on skype but i thought mallam sawyer did all the justice….God bless your literary heart.
Awwwwww. It’s obvious Femi cares about someone far away. “Can’t wait but I will” Am waiting for you Femi *sobs*
I'm crying. I'm gon keep crying till I wake up tomorrow. :'(
Agbaya!
Beautiful.
Dude, this is fabulous…hilarious and all…good one…
Absolutely beautiful.
This is my story.
That is my song.
These are my words.
Those are my emotions.
For now… For now.
Rise boy, Rise…
Shall we get a bucket?
This is my story.
That is my song.
These are his words.
Those are his emotions.
For now… For now.
I hope I get something like this asap.
Oh Femi!! Where did you hide this sweetness of yours all these years??? Long sigh!
wow…. *sigh* i want this kind of love.. again..
This is surreal….it is beautiful
moist nigga
LOOOOL!
What is all this?
I'm not weird. I'm not weird. I'm not weird.
*lone tear* This is like The Notebook. Nobody says such deliciously romantic shit to me. ( ._.) Aii, I’m going to kill myself now, brb.
This is beyond beautiful,words cannot do justice to this…its just WOW!
This is beyond beautiful,words cannot do justice….its just Wow!
hmmmmm!
I love I like.
I stole some lines tho….
a new side of the totem-tugging Mallam…